"You need to loose weight" me=depressed

I did get a small workout in before my dr's appt.
I was a little late but I went for like 45 minutes of the sport circuit class...we did a bunch of shit....i don't remember it all but like 50 burt bees, 50 push ups, 50 dips, 50 side to side with a 15 lb kettleball swing on each side and idk some arm curls and other shit.
Then i hopped onto the crossramp for about 30 minutes or so....
Can someone please just tell me I'm fat. I want someone to tell me it on their own terms not because I'm begging to hear it.
I weighed in an awful number. HUGE.
I don't want o put it out there. But know it's big and my bmi is really close to being overweight. My blood pressure was good 111/79 and my pulse wasn't bad.
But omg seriously. I ALMOST gave in and texted my therapist telling him my stats and my bmi and telling him that I'm just FAT and other people see it.
When I stepped on the scale today I said "holy cow" and then a little while later the nurse said "what?" and i said "its a huge number"
Thanks to Stick Thin's blog spot I'm going to start today. Today's going to mark the change. I got my physical exam. I'm at my highest weight EVER. even before this whole food issues started a few years ago and I need to loose the pounds.
Dr. Oz had a pretty good show on today about weight loss.
Okay I'm sorry I'm just so depressed right now--sorry I'm not going to read any blogs at the moment or anything--it's just going to make me feel horrible to see how little people are eating and then oh the big elephant me. So I think I'm going to take a break. At least for a few hours. We'll see--thank you all who read this pointless shit of mine and I love reading yours and i love getting comments! Love it!! So thanks guys. It's really sweet <3