Still can't believe how much I weigh.

I still can't believe how much I weigh.
Oh myyy goodness.

I know restricting and not eating many calories isn't good. But I need to loose a bit of weight first. And then i'll eat more. Yet I really need to take ONE day at a time....or else I just am a MESSSSS. And I don't even think I can restrict that much. I'm not that strong.

I'm still sorta sad.
I don't know if I can go to my gym class tomorrow at 5:30 because I think I'm working so I'm sorta sad. I love my 5:30 gym class with that personal trainer who pushes me hard!!! loveee it! and love all the people in the class! it's basically the same people every week :)

What I ate today:
-a red delicious apple with sprinkled cinnamon (popped it into the microwave!)
-diet coke with lime
-a little less than 1/2 cup blueberries (35-40cal?)
-an orange (70?)
-28 almonds (160)
-small baggy of chex mix (like 3/4 cup?? idk like 120-150cal??) (WAS MAD I ATE THIS!! it was the kid's food too that i babysit for arrrggggg!!!!)
-chobani raspberry greek yogurt (140)
-3 protein pumpkin pancakes
-15 baby carrots with a small amt of hummus

(about 830-870 calories??)
What do ya think? do ya think thats accurate??

This was the chex mix I ate:
took it on my phone so again....not great quality :(
I tried to spread it out....



Here's the apple I ate too....my dunkin donuts coffee on the side...



UPDATEEEEEEE
I suck.
did i mention......i suck?? and that im really fat??? yeah im a fucking cow.
Yeah....so after I posted this at 11pm i GAVE IN!!! UGHHHHH
-luna bar nuts and cranberry (170)
-kettlecorn (100) with 2 tiny bits of teddies peanut butter
-english muffin (120) with a tiny bit of teddies peanut butter (finished the jar. wasn't much there. fuck me)
-luna bar nuts and cranberry (170)
-chobani yogurt (140)
about 1580-1720???
fuck!!!