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Today was horrible. I need to get back on track.
Eating when not hungry is no fun. I ate a shit load today. Feel horrible. Feel completely bloated and just MAD! I wish I could just sleep for the rest of my life.

I'm really missing my therapist. It's only the beginning of the month and you say I have to last until the very end of July with no contact with him??
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I miss him. Hes the only one that understands me. I mean I could text him. But I don't want to. I don't want to bother him. I want him to relax and enjoy his vacation.
I'm a mess right now.
I have to complete this form for my new school. Yeah--of course...a health form with like your history and like your WEIGHT and a physical and stuff. Great...this means I need to go to my doctor....get a physical....and step on a scale. something i DON'T want to do. If I don't submit it by July 16th I won't be able to attend. Hmmmmmm. WHAT TO DO! LIKE I REALLY REALLY REALLY do not want someone to weigh me. I really want to text my therapist and tell him I'm so freaked out and tell him that I just want him to call them and tell them "don't weigh her"
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Ugh.
Fat me.
Who will never ever ever loose any weight at the rate you've been going.