This is my life. love it. hate it. its my life.: Life.

Saturday, July 3, 2010

Life.

Depressed.

Thats me right now.

I've been in bed bascially all day.

I have no desire to go see any fireworks or go anywhere. I don't want to be seen. I feel like I am 200 pounds. I am huge. I ate so much today. Ate to the point of it HURTING. I didn't work out today.

I feel like crap. I really very alone. Feel very alone. I want to be understood. I want to feel like someone cares about me. I want to have friends. I want to be pretty. I want to be thin.

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I restricted big time for a year, then began the cycle of B/P for a year and a binge to me then was a low amount of calories. now a binge to me is considered a lot more than it was. for some reason i slowly stopped purging. nothing really changed. nothing at all.

Diagnosed with EDNOS by ED Specialists/Therapist and a psychologist. Also diagnosed with Bulimia.

Purging Free Since

April 27, 2010

-once on June 3rd I did try and throw up I was so mad but I was sick so my throat was killing me, my eyes hurt and I only got up water. so i don't count it. thats the only time since april 27th.