A nice break

It's nice being home for the long weekend.
It's a nice break.
I'm eating A LOT though.
I don't know.
I ran a 5K this morning. My time was 24:22. Ugh. I've done better/probably could have done better. My thigh/hamstring is KILLING me. I really want to go to the doctor/physical therapy for a few days while I'm home and get a massage of some sort on my leg/thigh. The pain just hurts.

I made this DELICIOUS Pumpkin Gingerbread with Buttercream Frosting.
OMG DELICIOUS.
Perfect!!
Got it off here :-)

http://ohsheglows.com/2010/10/02/pumpkin-gingerbread-with-spiced-buttercream/

Love it!!

I wish I could see my therapist while I'm here. I don't think I'm going to/can.
Whatever. :-(

I just wish I could be skinny. I'm trying to be happy and trying to work out and eat well.
It's just hard. It's a mess of a secret life.

Moods.

It's crazy how moods control you.
I'm in such a crappy mood right now and hate when I get like this.
I miss my therapists.
My mind is saying negative thoughts though...like he hates me and doesn't care...etc..etc.
I am depressed/sad. I think its because I'm fat, I'm scared shit I'm going to fail this exam tomorrow its the hardest crap in the world and I'm just lonely/have no friends.

ughh life is sucking right now.