I love therapy!! I love personal training!!

I had a wonderful personal training session today. He whipped my butt. We did hard ass stuff. Dumbell stuff and used bands.....like one leg squats, dumbell row, arm curls, push ups....just really hard stuff and very minimal rest! I loved it!!!
I got a really good workout.

Of course I still have a lot of trouble with my body image and one homework assignment my psychologist gave me was to keep track of how many negative thoughts I have about my body and about me and stuff and I did....and it ranged from like 40-59 times. So I don't know my therapist thought that was pretty high....it's like 3-4 negative thoughts an hour. And if I dwelled on a thought for a while I only put one tally mark. If I started thinking about something else for a few minutes and then went back to a negative thought I put another tally mark.

Blah..

So I didn't have a therapy time scheduled today but I asked my therapist if I could please please see him monday (today) and he hadn't heard from one person and then idk we were texting and then i heard they hadn't shown up yet so I got off work early and drove up and saw him for 30 mins. It was short but nice. I'll see him again Thursday.

I love therapy I love being listened to.

Part of me wants to just get stick thin and another part of me (probably a big part dealing with my hot trainer :) wants me to get in kick ass shape and just work out a ton and get more toned and shit) I'm just so torn.

And I'm not going to give any numbers--I'm really trying to stay away from that.
But I didn't have much today and then I just gave in a little while and gave into my noisy tummy. I'm still not satisfied. Theres still some empty whole....craving more food but I just think it hasn't registered yet. Who knows.

I'm working a lot this week...sort of.
I saw friends tonight...we watched The Bachelorette it was nice to just hang out with friends!!!!!
I've missed seeing my friends!!! I just have been busy/haven't hung out with the much.

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I don't know.

I leave soon to go visit some college friends and probably going to be on the beach a lot.. Blahh Blahh.

I really need to get more comfortable with the invisalign and my hearing aids.
The invisalign really helps though not just eating on auto pilot!!

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I absolutely LOVEEE the song "Just the way you are" by Bruno Mars. I wish some guy was singing that song to me.

Thanks for all the comments on the photos I posted guys. Sorry I haven't been commenting much.