Done with work for the summer....?? What!?! :)

So yes-I am done working for the summer. Well okay I'm working for maybe 3 hours today but its not for the regular family I work for. So it's different. Yesterday was my first day off. I went to target and a mall. Got all sorts of fun goodies :) Spent way to much money might I add but had fun. I went by myself and wore my hearing aids. A "homework" assignment from my therapist. Oh idk why I listen to him!??!?? And do what he says. Maybe it's because he's the only one that listens and cares about me. I mean yall listen to me too :) and hear all my crap which is great and awesome but you know what I mean? I think.

By the way--thank you ALL for the amazing thoughts on hearing aids. I seriously never would of imagined some of the comments. Part of my mind is of course saying--oh they are just saying that, oh they are making that up, oh they are being nice...etc...etc....but part of me really wants to believe that I can be semi-normal and have friends and have a boyfriend with them. Thats my dream. But to be honest--I just don't see why any boy would want a girl with hearing aids.
And thanks for the text this morning lulu :)

So yesterday--oh my gosh! Such an INTENSE workout. My shirt was soaked...SOAKED in sweat. hahaa literally. not kidding. I needed it though.

I'm off to go see the podiatrist because I'm tired of getting shin splits and I'm going to see if he thinks I should get orthotics. We'll see what he says. Then off to babysit for a bit. Then might come home or just go straight to therapy. Then after therapy I'm going to the gym. So then I'd be home around 8. And then shower and eat.

I've been eating a lot lately. My weights not changing.
My life is going to be completely different in exactly ONE WEEK. I will be moving into my dorm room....next Thursday am.

But ummm....kashi oatmeal chocolate cookies---ummm just bought them yesterday and damn are they good.
My breakfast today was 2 of those and an egg. I gave in to the urge/craving. I know all urges go away and cravings sometimes too. But I just decided to listen to it. Sometimes I just have too. Usually I end up eating more crap later when I avoid my cravings.

So it's my last time seeing my therapist :(
I'm going to miss him. ummm...A LOT. like A LOT. he is the most amazing person I've ever met.
On monday we talked about choices and decisions. And we have the power to make choices and decisions in life. And he was bascially talking to me about this situations with a friend and her view on hearing aids and then my view. And how much of a freak I think I am when I wear them...and he said you have data...you have two sides to choose from/to believe and you tend to gravitate towards the negative...Idk if yall really want to know what we talk about I can maybe write more. Sometimes its too personal and thats the beauty of therapy.
But on monday he seriously helped me out a ton. He beat down on my thoughts. And questioned lots of my irrational thoughts and we just talked and it was just amazing.
Oh I am going to miss him.
Who knows if I'll see him again. Well as a patient of his that is. I'm sure I'd see him around but Idk how much longer I'm going to see him. Going off to school and stuff sometimes makes shit confusing.

Thanks for reading. I'd love to hear your thoughts. I will comment soon/I'll try to ladies!!