i have to run to work! i slept late and just blahhhhh whatevesss
anyway i know i said i didnt want to write my workout and count calories on here anymore. i really dont want to. i want to stop comparing myself to others and others comparing themselves to me. its a hard thing to not do!!!!! so im trying to not give in to that and not be an advocate for that sort of stuff
anyways i had some lovely oatmeal today with hemp seeds, wheat germ, flax seeds and grape nuts and some blueberries as well. it was very filling and delicious.
im taking a day off from the gym today. im quiet sore. and i also have work until 10pm. so seeing as i slept late i didnt have much time and anyway i could use a day off. rest is just as important as working out. says my trainer :) hahaa since he sees me at the gym all the time.
xoxo
id love some lovely texts or comments to keep me smiling :)
xoxo
therapy tomorrow!! wooohooo hahaha im such a loser :)
ohh and guess what monday i ate a little over 2000 calories. i know i said no number but i just really wanted to say that and when i weighed myself tuesday morning i maintained!!! i was soo surprised!!!!
hey love!
ReplyDeletei am sorry i havent texted (my phone is broken) or commented. or anything...! I've been MIA for the past few days: had a heap of stuff to think through and process of what the hell is going on in my life. I really wanted to say i apriciate all the encouragig words you've said to me over the past while. You have helped more than you know. I am going to post a blog on the changes ive made in my life. You will be happy to read this one. You will also be happy for hear that i have gained a signicifcant amount of weight since my last post...which i dont feel so bad about. i feel healthy again, and my head isnt so screwy. iven known what you have been telling me to be true all along, its just hard to accept it when you are in it all: you know what i mean. I went 3 days purge free: i missed up today a bit, but im gonna keep on going strong. again youll read more in the blog. i love you girl so much and thank you for being absolutely amazing to me and caring about me! ALL my love
xxo.
Rach
Heyy, I wasn't on blogspot for a couple of days. Okay that meal sounds YUMMY! lol. Oatmeal, blueberries<33. I'm happy you're getting better.
ReplyDeleteI'm kinda slipping. I just don't know what i'm feeling, it's a mess, a bit blurry. I don't really get the you are not your thoughts part - I get it in one way, but the other way is saying no lol. XD I'm going to a psych every week if it's possible. But it makes me so depressed, dealing with EVERYTHING lol. I haven't seen him - psych - in 2 months, due to exams and then vacation. I was supposed to mail him for a new appointment, but I haven't yet..
What should I do? Act like i'm better so my mom will feel ok? Or actually tell my psych everything? I think I want another psych actually.. My mom has heard things through the wall a couple of times I think (3 or 4 she was bringing me to my psych.) The walls are so thin there.. :(
And you're really sweet lol:) And don't kill yourself by exercising XD Are you trying to lose weight or maintaining atm?
Loves.