THE PROTEIN BAKERY!

Okay--so.....I'm doing OKAY right now. Had an apple for breakfast. Shortly after I had some coffee with almond milk. Then after classes for the day....about an hour ago...I had some oatbran with peanut flour and a cut up apple. AND then I opened my box from the protein bakery!! I ordered a pkg of oatmeal cranberry cookies (2 cookies in a pkg) and a pkg of peanut butter chocolate chip cookies (again 2 cookies in the pkg) and okay so that was $4.50 and then shipping.....damn shipping.....was $9.25!!!! goodness gracious. hahaaaha.
I opened my package of cookies and SURPRISE they threw in extras!!!!!!!!!!! Hahahaa :-)
That was exciting!!!
Not that I need the extra calories. The stats are pretty good. Idk.......
But I ate one package....so yes....two cookies....of the pumpkin chocolate chip walnut cookie. Which was one they threw in for free.....?....which was SOOOOOOO SOOOOO SOOOO good! :-) And then they also through in this blondie.

I snapped a photo :-)



I weighed myself this morning.
I've lost weight.
But it was weight I needed to loose.
I'm not going to weigh myself until October 1st.

Hope everyones doing well.
Thanks for the comments :-)
I'm going to go pump some iron (this weekend) and run some miles in a few :-) after this food digests.

Okayy sooo.....an update....I went to the grocery store!!!!
Woohooo. I love food. I really don't want to gain weight at this damn school though. I hope I maintain control over this food!!!!!!!! I've lost like 10 lbs....who knows if its really 10 lbs though....and to be honest....I needed to loose those 10 lbs.
So I am addicted to shopping for food. I spent way to much money!!! BLAHHHH!!!!
Waiting for the bus I had a lovely LUNA-White Chocolate Macadamia Bar and 1 fig and 1 soy and flax rice corn cake thingyy.

Heres all the lovely groceries I bought..........





thoughts?? opinions?? comments???

I forget what Larabars taste like...I can't buy many granola bars.....ya know why??? They are my ENEMY!!! sorry I love 'em but I can eat an entire box. I will binge on that stuff. I got La Tortilla tortillas.......hmmm....IDK what I'm going to do with it......maybe bring it to the dining hall to have my turkey sandwich on? I mean my roommates are pretty chill with doing stuff like that I think....or I'll just get a sandwich and then take it back to my room....?? and then use a tortilla in my room and then eat the sandwich in my room....IDK!!! I got a banana because there are never bananas in that damn dining hall!!!! I also got some veggies....maybe I'll steam those up later?!?! 100 calories per a bag :-) YUMMMM and I got some spaghetti squash thanks to GiGi! She talks ALL about it with me ALL the time hahaa and I finally am going to listen and give it a try. I bought semi small ones because I hear they are a BITCH to cut open....so I'm NOT exactly sure HOW the HELL I'm going to cut those things up in this damn dorm room.

Oh and I'm doing well purging wise....binging is sometimes hard...but I've been okay.....no purging though....I don't even remember the last time I did....maybe sometime before I left for school..maybe begg. of august/mid august. It's hard with hall bathrooms. Harder than you'd think. People are constantly in there and I have no where to hide or whatever. Idk I have no urge. And because I haven't purged a lot since March/June/whenever I really stopped....I think it was around then....there have been only a FEW times where I have thrown up---obviously thought I was really upset and felt really guilty the times I have since then....and they haven't been many times...but...because of me stopping and no longer doing it---it means I don't have an "eating disorder" anymore. Right...????!!!! I mean I don't think I've ever had an "eating disorder" but a bunch of psychologists and a doctor told me I did...maybe I heard them wrong ;)

Oh ANDD I love my therapist from back home. He is amazing. So good to me. Understands me and ATTACKS my thinking. And does it in a nice and caring way. Yet just aways challenges me!! And its good because it is helpful for all those irrational thoughts I have. I called the counseling center here today at my school and I think I'm going to go meet with someone in like 2 weeks or so....I'll probably write about it if I do go. I'm not planning on telling them I've had previous counseling...because you know what happens then....they ask why you had counseling etc etc....I am planning on discussing my trouble with shyness and homsickness and ya. Thats really it. We'll see......

Hmm...thats it for now. I'm gonna go work up a sweat. Or try to.....
:-)
See ya!